Hi guys!!! Just before you read the entry, make note that you NEED the code names from the last post, otherwise the names will just seem random and not make any sense. Well, you’ll only have to do that if you don’t have hyperthemesia or semantic memory😁😁. Anyway let me not keep you any longer. Happy reading!

Sabbath

Okay so I looked back at a previous entry from last year when I wished Ethan happy birthday and I realized I was SOOOOOO nervous that I kept backing out but yes dear diary, I know he’s practically my brother so why was I nervous??? Also it was Oliver’s birthday that weekend too. Last time Kayla (his older sister) and Danielle were practically holding me at gunpoint to just say happy birthday. Anyway, this time I saw him and decided to go by myself because why not? It’s not like I have a crush on him anymore (No, you know he’s only my former foster brother and not my bio brother so it’s not that weird to have a crush on him, especially if he is kinda really cute❤️). And besides, we were at church today so why would God not answer my desperate plea for less timidness? Danielle and Kayla were actually behind us when I did this but hopefully they will never remember. So yeah, but this week Pathfinders was really fun. We went camping two weekends ago in the church yard and I was depressed cause everyone had someone they hung out with: Camille with her clique, Danielle’s girlfriends, and the guys. I was in none of them and ended up being extremely lonely. I went to sleep 9:45ish, woke up 11:48, went back to sleep. Woke up 1:00ish and went back to sleep. Woke up 3:00ish and had to walk through the terrifying basement door to use the bathroom. Alone. No counselor. I was terrified. The back door reminds me of something the Jews would have to walk through during the Holocaust when they were led into gas chambers. The walls are made of cement and are coated with dust and grime and old cobwebs that have been there since forever. Also, I think there’s a dead frog in the corner by the door. After camping Danielle was telling me that it felt like her friend group was complete again, what with Eli being back and all. The sermon today was okay. I went to change after, and Taylor followed me out. She’s like my little shadow sometimes😊😊. When we walked back to the church building I saw Vyre and Creston walking up from the front basement door (not the creepy basement door). They turned to go up the sidewalk and Vyre was walking straight🚶🏻‍♂️, then hunched over 🐪 then 🧟‍♂️ zombie walking. I watched them with Taylor from where they previously turned then went to the fellowship hall for potluck. Ella and I actually ended up behind Vyre in the line, and she was not happy about it. She kept pushing over to my side of the line but finally stopped. I was wondering when Eli came back and Ella said to ask Tia Charlotta, his mom, who was behind us. I pretended not to hear, then abruptly did an about-face and said jokingly “I didn’t know he was your son.” Tia Charlotta replied: “Huh? Yes…no..I don’t know.” then smiled widely and asked what on earth we were talking about.

I wanted to sit at Danielle’s table with her and her friends, but I don’t think they would really want me there anyway. Danielle always says “You are part of the friend group!” but I usually feel excluded. After potluck I went upstairs to the chapel to read Guide magazines. After a while of reading by myself in much-needed peace and quiet, I heard someone come in, loudly saying, “Come here. Good boy, gooood boy!” I peeked around the wall behind me and saw Ethan coming in with Oliver. They sat down in the little audio and visuals (AV) booth at the back of the room and started preparing for Pathfinders. Ethan told Oliver to go turn on the TV, and said “Good boy.” when Oliver did so. Oliver picked up the remote, walked to the front of the room, turned on the TV, turned to his right, and saw me. He looked startled cause he didn’t hear me and couldn’t see me from the back of the room (there was a big wall behind me) then quickly walked back to Ethan. Soon Serena came in and she and Oliver started asking Ethan how he learned to work so well in AV. Serena asked if someone taught him, and he said no, he kinda learned it himself picking up new things here and there. Serena was like “So you just knew everything?” Ethan responded that one day he was randomly picked from the congregation to work in the AV team and was taught some stuff, but the rest he learned on his own. By that time, I was lonely and wanted someone to hang out with instead of eavesdropping so I stalked out of the room (Serena’s back was toward me so IDK if she even knew I was there) called Ella and Faith (my younger sisters), and Taylor, and told them to follow me quietly back to the chapel. Oh yeah and Michael, Ms. Anastasia’s son, came too. Anyway when we sat down, Michael wanted to play the drum set but we told him not to, then Taylor, Faith, and Ella started playing with the old microphones behind me. Taylor plugged one of the mics into the port beside the TV, but no one noticed until we heard static going on and off. I immediately looked to the back of the room where Ethan was, but Ella said no, it was Taylor. Taylor said she couldn’t get the mic disconnected, but when she did, the static was still going. She looked confused but bounced over to me while I turned back to glare at Ethan, who was watching us scramble around with an amused look on his face. By the way, when I came back to the chapel with the girls (and Michael), Oliver and Serena had already left. Back to what I was saying…then Ella asked Ethan “Is it you making that noise?”

Ethan replied sarcastically “Yeah. Why, is it bothering you?” I rolled my eyes and turned back to my Guide. Soon after, Ethan came to the front of the room to check the TV connection, and told Ella, Faith and Taylor to stop playing with the mics.

Ella heard ‘mice’ so said “Mice!?! What mice?”

Ethan responded “No, MICS. M-I-K-S.” then (he was facing the TV standing about where Oliver was earlier) he looked over his shoulder at me! I had honestly no idea why he did that,, but we locked eyes and I just glared hard at him as he smirked right back at me. For a second it felt like we were sharing a little secret, like how real siblings do.

When Pathfinders was finally about to start, I walked out of the room and saw Tessa and Danielle standing outside the chapel door with flags in hand. Danielle asked how to do the flag entrance, so I showed her. She thought I should hold the third flag. I skipped off to the bathroom. I heard James telling them that Kayla would hold the other flag. When I came out of the washroom, Oliver was coming out of the room across from the bathrooms with his bag on his shoulder. He was taking up pretty much the whole width of the hallway so I flattened myself against the wall, holding my breath, and carefully squeezed past him. I then skipped over to where Ella was standing with Danielle and Tessa. Ella started giggling loudly so I asked her what was so hilarious. She responded: “When you skipped past Vyre, he was so surprised when he saw you that he backed right into the wall!” By the time I looked back, he had already disappeared into the bathroom. To be honest, I didn’t care one bit about what he thought of me.